Thursday, May 11, 2023

NOT a bucket list.

When I was 26 I made a list of 50 things I wanted to accomplish in my lifetime.  You can tell my brain was mostly developed but definitely still mushy in parts.  Honestly it still is, but God granted me 16 more years since I wrote the original list & I believe it merits an update.  Besides, someone recently said to me “I was just thinking to myself earlier today … 'Susie doesn’t write anymore'… why DON'T you write anymore?" & I had a lot of excuses but no real answers.  Thus – I present my half-ass effort @ writing on a weeknight, 75% thru a bottle of wine, @ 42 YO: 

 To Do: 

 

1)      Get a job I love

a.       Ugh – I love having a successful career but its capitalism at its worst and I am only using it as a means to an end

2)     Skydive on my birthday – check!

3)     Move to Hawaii – check!

4)     Go to church – mega check

a.       Also ugh – church people are still just people

5)      Marry my best friend – check!

a.       por vida

6)     Watch parents play with grandbabies

a.       Never, sorry. Can’t 😞

7)      Get a Graduate Degree

a.       Ugh too tired for this @ 42 

8)     Be a Bridesmaid- check!

a.       Couple times – even a MOH once

9)     Go to Egypt, France, Japan, Thailand, Cuba, Puerto Rico, Brazil, Mexico City, Canada, Michoacan, Africa, Jamaica, Italy, Amsterdam, etc.

a.       Only Amsterdam so far 

10)  Take a road trip across the U.S. & see  every state possible

a.       NV & AZ only by car

b.      TX & IL soon by plane

11)   Write a book

a.       This is like my 1,000,000th attempt

12)  Be more affectionate – check!

a.       This is tough but yea –there has to be wine 

13)  Own property & paint one of my walls purple & paint a Sandra Cisneros poem over it – check! 

a.       The most important one here is owning property

b.      Going to get a big magnet sheet to put my art on the wall in my office so I can put Sandra in purple there

14)  Have an “art room” – check!

a.       My office!  & the patio!  & the whole house!

15)  Be on the Price Is Right

                           a.       I just decided I also wanna do Family Feud

16)  Ride in a hot air balloon – check! 

a.       Cringey proposal included LMAO 😆

17)   Go paintballing

a.       This is coming off the list.  I bruise easily now. 

18)  Be the best daughter, auntie, niece, friend, granddaughter, cousin I can be

a.       Ugh I am in therapy for this

b.      I’m a good Tia though ❤

19)  Learn to DJ – WITH VINYL

20) Watch the Chargers win the Super Bowl in my lifetime

a.       UUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH

b.      THEY LOST A 27 PT LEAD TO THE JAGS IN THE 2023 PLAYOFFS

21)  Learn to swim all over again – check!

a.       I joined the Y & took swim lessons with kids when I was 27!

22) Get Lasik

a.       My eyeballs are shaped oddly & I will not benefit from this at all per optometrists

23) Never ever ever forget where I came from- check!

a.       por vida

24) Go to Disney World

25)  Change someone’s life for the better for nothing in return

a.       Idek where to start here.  I’ve always benefitted from good deeds so this might be impossible. 

26) Quit smoking—check!

a.       This was hard af

27)  Have a Valentine—check!

a.       por vida

28) Get out of debt – CHEEEEEECCCCCK! ✅✅✅✅

a.       This was also hard af

b.      Only owe the house

29) Forgive & be forgiven – check!

a.       Wow – this one is life-changing 💔

b.      I was toxic to some & a blessing to others, and either way I wasn’t always right  😈😇

30) Take Mom on a helicopter tour – check!

a.       She loved it!

31)  Do laundry more often—check!

a.       This has been a royal pain in my ass but yes, mf’in check ✔

32) Do the 3 Day Breast Cancer walk 

a.       … but … my bunions! 👣

33) Stop eating meat—check! 

a.       Im taking this off the list, I love a bloody steak. 🥩

34) Ride a Ferris Wheel – check!  

a.       w/ C for the first time ever the year before we got married - @ the Del Mar Fair w/Milu & Ren 

35)  Play basketball with my Dad again

a.       ☹ *drinks wine* 🍷

36) Be at a championship fight in Vegas & have my fighter actually win 🥊

37)  Weigh 120 lbs.

a.       LMAOOOOOO

38) Grow my hair out & then chop it all off  - check!

a.       Like a hundred times over

39) Learn to cook at least one thing other than eggs – check!

a.       Oh man im sucha way better cook now!  


40) Get a tattoo from Kat Von D

a.       Im revising this to get a tattoo from every place I travel to from now on

41)  Have as many dogs as possible – check!

a.       I can only handle 2 at a time rn  🐕🐶

42) Shake Common’s hand—check!

43) Plant a tree

a.       Does removing a tree count? bc check twice

44) Volunteer at the polls during an election

45) Be less judgemental - check! 

a.       This has been a process & I bet after I do mushrooms it will leave so MUSHROOM to be even less judgey LOL “ty ty im here all day”  🍄🤣

46) Be less guarded – check

a.       Just get drunk it happens naturally 🍻

47)  Be more quiet – check!

a.       ONLY BC  i WFH by myself all day SO i have no choice 

48) Cuss less –

a.       FUCK this – removing from list 🙊⛔

49) Witness everyone I know find happiness

a.       This is also weird.  Everyone I know has something that makes them happy but not 24/7 

50) Check everything off on this list & then some.

a.       * queue midlife crisis*

 

Stay tuned for the next installment when I'm 58!  😉jk ❤👽